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It”s Hard to Losing you

inibudiono — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 04:27:20 +0000

Last night i was deeply sad, this is the third time i’ve got refused, but it doesn’t like before, that i expressed my anger, last night i realized that i am nobody, and i should look into the mirror and see, who i am. i should know who exactly i am and i don’t wanna be a barrier for her which is she wanna pursue her dream, i should help her to fly and touch the sky, and she might be more success without me.
i love her very much so i let her make her own decision, its not because i didn’t love her anymore, but the fact is i do love her more than i love my self, so i choose to keep my sadness, she have a right to refuse or to accept, she know the best and i belief she won’t make a mistake because she is a wise lady. in this case i didn’t say that i am not disappointed actually i am deeply sad,but i realize that i cannot promise her to give her a better than her choice?i don’t know for sure i only know that i love her and i will very pleased if she happy. Thanks God for the time when i having her as my lady it’s an amazing time while we were together, and if someday she came back to me and decided to stay with me, that will be an amazing time, and i won’t let her lose for the fourth time

God is My Saviour , and i pray novena to holy Mother Marie

inibudiono — Sun, 18 Dec 2011 10:02:20 +0000

Have you ever feel that no body trust you , while you are in trouble? i did and i just passing that condition but my friend told me that our God is alive God, and He is loving us…
actually i just forgotten when i was teen, i always pray novena 3 kali Salam Maria and a have the answer of my problem and somehow i survive….
and now it happen again i don’t know why i just believe He will answer my pray and i promise to write my experience in my blog.
for now i put that pray on my blog so everyone will using this pray when they need

NOVEN 3 KALI SALAM MARIA

Bunda Maria, Perawan yang berkuasa, bagimu tidak ada sesuatu yang tak mungkin, karena kuasa yang dianugerahkan oleh Tuhan Yang Maha Kuasa kepadamu. Dengan sangat aku mohon pertolonganmu dalam kesulitanku ini, janganlah hendaknya engkau meninggalkan aku, sebab aku yakin engkau pasti dapat menolong, meski dalam perkara yang sulit, yang sudah tidak ada harapannya, engkau tetap menjadi pengantara bagi Puteramu.

Baik keluhuran Tuhan, penghormatanku kepadamu maupun keselamatan jiwaku akan bertambah seandainya engkau sudi mengabulkan segala permohonanku ini. Karenanya, kalau permohonanku ini benar-benar sesuai dengan kehendak Puteramu, dengan sangat aku mohon, o Bunda, sudilah meneruskan segala permohonanku ini ke hadirat Puteramu, yang pasti tak akan menolakmu.

Pengharapanku yang besar ini, berdasarkan atas kuasa yang tak terbatas yang dianugerahkan oleh Allah Bapa kepadamu. Dan untuk menghormati besarnya kuasamu itu, aku berdoa bersama dengan St. Mechtildis yang kau beritahukan tentang kebaikan doa “Tiga Salam Maria”, yang sangat besar manfaatnya itu.

(Salam Maria……..3x)

Perawan Suci yang disebut Tahta Kebijaksanaan, karena Sabda Allah tinggal padamu, engkau dianugerahi pengetahuan Ilahi yang tak terhingga oleh Puteramu, sebagai makhluk yang paling sempurna untuk dapat menerimanya.

Engkau tahu betapa besar kesulitan yang kuhadapin ini, betapa besar pengharapanku akan pertolonganmu. Dengan penuh kepercayaan akan tingginya kebijaksanaanmu, aku menyerahkan diri seutuhnya kepadamu, supaya engkau dapat mengatur dengan segala kesanggupan dan kebaikan budi, demi keluhuran Tuhan dan keselamatan jiwaku. Sudilah kiranya Bunda dapat menolong dengan segala cara yang paling tepat untuk terkabulnya permohonanku ini.

O Maria, Bunda Kebijaksanaan Ilahi, sudilah kiranya Bunda berkenan mengabulkan permohonanku yang mendesak ini. Aku memohon berdasarkan atas kebijaksanaanmu yang tiada bandingnya, yang dikaruniakan oleh Puteramu melalui Sabda Ilahi kepadamu.

Bersama dengan St. Antonius dari Padua dan St. Leonardus dari Porto Mauritio, yang rajin mewartakan tentang devosi “Tiga Salam Maria” aku berdoa untuk menghormati kebijaksanaanmu yang tiada taranya itu

(Salam Maria……..3x)

O Bunda yang baik dan lembut hati, Bunda Kerahiman Sejati yang akhir-akhir ini disebut sebagai “Bunda yang penuh belas kasih”, aku datang padamu, memohon dengan sangat, sudilah kiranya Bunda memperlihatkan belas kasihmu kepadaku. Makin besar kepapaanku, makin besar pula belas kasihmu kepadaku.

Aku tahu, bahwa aku tidak pantas mendapat karunia itu. Sebab seringkali aku menyedihkan hatimu dengan menghina Puteramu yang kudus itu. Betapapun besarnya kesalahanku, namun aku sangat menyesal telah melukai Hati Kudus Yesus dan hatikudusmu.

Engkau memperkenalkan diri sebagai “Bunda para pendosa yang bertobat” kepada St. Brigita, maka ampunilah kiranya segala kurang rasa terima kasihku padamu. Ingatlah akan keluhuran Puteramu saja serta kerahiman dan kebaikan hatimu yang terpancar dengan mengabulkan permohonanku ini melalui perantaraan Puteramu.

O Bunda, Perawan yang penuh kebaikan serta lembut dan manis, belum pernah ada orang yang datang padamu dan memohon pertolongamu engkau biarkan begitu saja. Atas kerahiman dan kebaikanmu, aku berharap dengan sangat, agar aku dianugerahi Roh Kudus. Dan demi keluhuranmu, bersama St. Alfonsus Ligouri, rasul kerahimanmu serta pengajar devosi “Tiga Salam Maria”, aku berdoa untuk menghormati kerahimanmu dan kebaikanmu.

(Salam Maria……..3x)

Love don’t come easy, once it come it’s hard to go

inibudiono — Thu, 24 Nov 2011 19:13:36 +0000

First time i meet her when we are young,as usual, when the boy see a young beautiful girl the boy will pursue the girl,but i was shame and thinking that she is too good for me and i wasn’t deserve i was affraid that she will reject me like the other girls….shame on me actually other girl has reject me before and i think i might not be good enough to choose someone i like.
Second time i meet her when i was in the college we are seeing each other once again and just say hello….again nothing happened after meeting….and everytime we meet just saying hello just like meeting someone at the mall….so i try to forget her…after view years we meet again and the situation are very different and it doesn’t like before she remember me and we chat like an old friend.
I still admire her like i was but once again i dont have a heart to tell her that i love her and i still love her after the years gone by.

June 4th 2011

Thank You Father, For The Most Unforgetable Present on My Birthday

inibudiono — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 19:01:55 +0000

view days ago i was celebrating my birthday, at the beginning i don’t think that day will be so unforgetable moment in my life, so flat and ussual and i have supprise when i meet her…we just chat and make some joke but, i feel my night so colourfull and bright, although there are cloudy and rainy day but my night so bright, so full and i cannot describe what i feel and i thank God for the best present in my life, and that night will be unforgetable moment in my life and one of the best present that i ever had, if i still have and i will ask an additional request on my birthday and its for her, i want she will get what she dreaming on…i don’t know exactly what she want but i ask to God in every pray that i do,that she will able to make her dream come true what ever it will be the worst day in my life i won’t change my request because whatever she want it will be for her own good and knowing that she will very glad it is enough for me…i still have her in my memories and i will keep it, i won’t be dissappointed because her existence has lift my spirit…
thank you Father for your birthday present that i cannot forget

Kita tidak dipercaya karena kesalahan kita dimasa lalu…

inibudiono — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 19:52:51 +0000

Pernahkah anda berpikir mengapa orang tidak mempercayai kita?banyak sekali penyebabnya, mungkin karena penampilan?atau karena kita dianggap memenuhin persyaratan?atau karena pengalaman yang pernah terjadi?saat ini saya sedang mengalami nya,saya dianggap tidak bisa dipercaya karena cara saya meyakinkan orang lain dan karena sebelumnya saya pernah mengingkari janji sehingga orang menjadi tidak percaya,kadang saya berpikir hal ini yang membuat mengapa orang yang pernah berbuat jahat dan mendapat hukuman dipenjara, sesudah bebas dari penjara mendapat stigma sebagai orang tidak bisa dipercaya…mungkin sebagian orang berkata penyebab adanya penjahat kambuhan adalah lingkungan yang tidak memberi kesempatan bagi orang tersebut untuk menunjukan bahwa dia telah berubah,tapi saya juga menyadari bahwa kekecewaan tidak bisa dilupakan dengan mudah,seperti luka mungkin tampak kering dan sembuh di permukaannya saja,tapi…bagaimana dalamnya?saya tidak menyalahkan orang yang tidak mempercayai saya,sedikitpun saya tidak ingin membantah,bahkan saya juga tidak mengatakan bahwa orang yang tetap tidak mempercayai saya salah sekalipun saya sudah memberikan fakta bahwa saya telah berubah,mungkin saya hanya mengharapkan sebuah pembelaan atas usaha yang sudah saya lakukan,andai itu tidak saya dapatkan juga maka saya tidak perlu kecewa atau lantas tidak berubah jadi lebih baik.mungkin ada sebuah rencana Tuhan yang indah dibalik kesendirian kita,mungkin Tuhan ingin kita tidak mengharap pembelaan dari manusia tapi kita berharap dariNya saja karena Dia menyediakan diriNya sebagai tempat perlindungan dan Dia mendengar tangisan kita saat kita sendiri dan Dia bekerja dengan caraNya yang agung untuk menjadi pengacara kita. Jadi tidak ada alasan bagi kita orang yang bersalah untuk kembali pada keadaan yang sebelumnya yang menyebabkan kita tidak dipercaya. Jadi yang perlu kita lakukan adalah tetap berusaha menjadi lebih baik hari demi hari sampai pada saat dan waktu yang telah ditentukan Tuhan nama baik kita akan dipulihkan.
Adakah anda yang sama seperti saya? Mari kita tetap dengan tekad kita bahwa kita sudah berubah dan layak dipercaya dan berharap supaya semua segera berakhir

Good things come to those who wait

inibudiono — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 21:27:05 +0000

Actually i don’t know exactly what i want to write,just sharing of my experience. Lately i’m having very bad day, many problem in working place and i have to clean all messed and fix everything done wrong,sometimes i cannot accept what have done on me but, finally i realize that God loves me in this circumstances.
After everything work fine and i can arrange all my plan i see something that amazed me,and i know what is Gods plan for me,just like Gods agrement with Noah after he landed on a mountain the water is to make a better world and the rainbow is the part of agreement.
Whatever happened i belief there is a good thing after problem,and i will be patience and obidient to see the good thing, just like wise man say ” good things comes to those who wait “…

Family is our home

inibudiono — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 10:07:00 +0000

Lately i have many problem and family problem also, so far i never imagine that it happened to me,it’s all my fault,all i can do just stand on my knees and pray asking for His grace,i still belief on miracle that He could made for me,i belief everything could be happened on the earth.
After all the things has passed i realize that the my real home is my family, it is the place to refresh from all the problem,it is the most wonderfull place and i can’t find it anywhere i only get this feeling in my family.
Now, i will do anything and i did with my best effort to get my family back,and i will do anything to fixed everything i will beg, i will cry ,death doesn’t fear me at all,i just want my family back. I think i’ll be fine if i have to lost my soul just to see happiest smile of my beloved daughter if i have to.Because the most precious thing in the world is family and the most valuable investment is our children don’t let them lost….

The most wonderfull time is the time when we are together

inibudiono — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 12:28:09 +0000

Everytime i hear dangdut music its tittle is sahara, i remember with my best friend,tipen that we called him actually he have a good name stefanus,but tipen is simple to say.
We are best friend since we are on junior high,and he was very nice person we did much funny things together. one thing that i learned from him is he able to bring happiness to other. although he have unsolving problems, i knew after he passed away about three months ago.
He was suffered by his problem but i never hear his complained, he always smile and full of laugh.
And now i try to be like him, he give his meal although he was hungry he always said that our friendship more precious that his meal. He could buy another meal later but he couldn’t buy our friendship later. I wondering why he do that, i think he doesn’t like his meal but i think his meal better that noodle that he made. Now i realized after some one told me that he loving me as his own brother,he always ask everybody to pray for me,he put me on his first priority.
Today is three months after he passed away and indeed i lost him,i lost my best friend that i ever had,this september thirdteen should be his birthday.ussually we celebrating with the funny way.
But his left has teach me that i have to share all the blessing that i received, through him i has learned how to appreciate,and giving respect to others,from him i learned to keep all the pain just for our self and always bring happiness in every occasion.
I just miss him if i could turn back the time i will back to the time when he was exist.
Good bye my friend…i just want you to know that i miss you

Dedicated to stefanus djaenal my best friend ever

God designed us to move forward

inibudiono — Mon, 05 Sep 2011 03:11:00 +0000

Have you ever observed your body on the mirror,we have 2 eyes in the front side of the head,we have 2 ears on the both side of the head,our hands is powerful for doing the jobs in front of us,our knees is designed to move forward easily,and our feet and knee are designed in a way so that we can jump to reach everything above us.
Have you considered that God created human to conquer the world and make a world to be a better place?
So…the point is…never look back,never remember what people had done to you or they might have broken your heart ,don’t let yourself down,we have to move forward …and reach our dream,we make everything impossible became possible. Because we are prefect creatures

article for teens autism

inibudiono — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 15:30:25 +0000

i read some article about autism and i write this for my mother she might be need this

1. Teen AutismTeens and Autism

2. Story of oscar dompas tenage autism who can survive and life as writer

on number 1 that is study case and solving problem for autism case which is that case from parent who have autism children

on number 2 it’s true story of Oscar Dompas a writer who succed to fight autism and how his parent support and guide him to be independent man

i hope this two article would be helpfull for you later i’ll find another

thanks to web author
1.i was taking Mrs Leni Marijani article at www.putrakembara.org i belief it will helpfull
2. article from http:autism.about.com